my laundry laughs while my love alights

I've felt a little trapped inside these lovely walls of mine.
Rain and sleet are formidable outdoors
while sick kids are restless within.

And this is the third week we've been sentenced to such a house arrest.
You would think, since I am home all day,
that I am getting much accomplished.
My laundry laughs at that little joke.

I can't clean my house fast enough to keep up with four little 
people and their imaginative play.

I usually start cleaning (although truthfully I never feel like I stop) 
around nine o'clock in the evening.

Sometime before midnight, though, with laundry still piled high, 
and a house that mocked my progress, I finally gave up.

I reached for my bible as I would a dish in my sink, another chore, a mindless task.
Just one more thing I knew I needed to do, but was too tired
for any enthusiasm.
Emotionally spent and functioning on autopilot.

How would I feel on a date like that?

Just the barest of whispers, but it jolted me from my routine.
Washed my heart in awareness.
My sacrifice is nothing if it is not love.
And Jesus deserves nothing less.

Lord, I want to love you.
Only to love you.
Not just go through the motions.

I want to sit with you with a quiet and adoring heart.
I want to read your words as I would a much
anticipated love letter.

I want you to be my passion.

My blissful obsession.

Sitting there on my couch, with still hands and a quiet soul,
I felt the warmth of His love seep into my veins and 
slip silently down my cheeks.

And it felt so good to be alive.


PaisleyJade said...

Oh man - you just wrote my day to day life right there!

BARBIE said...

Oh wow, this is so good. I often feel spent and drained when I get into the Lord's presence. But by the time I am done, I feel so much better.

Kelly @ Sufficient Grace Ministries said...

Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful Joye.

I don't even know how to thank you for sharing the cry of every busy-mama-who-also-loves-Jesus heart.
And for sharing it so eloquently.

Love to you, sweet lady...

Emily said...

Such truly perfect words for this season as a busy mama! Thank you. Too often I use my Bible as a another check off the list. But God is good, meets me there, and awakens my heart again.

Have a wonderful week dear Joye!

Theresa Miller said...

Oh, how I do relate...and isn't God faithful to a Mary heart. Beautiful.

Cynthia said...

Beautifully written! I can completely understand..it's been a bit of the same over here.

Lauren said...

straight into my heart... thank you so much for sharing this! I need it today!!

Mikalah said...

What a beautiful moment. Thanks for sharing that with us! I can hardly keep up with housework between my hubby and I, so I can't even imagine how it would be with 4 kiddos! But in reality, a clean and pure heart is so much better than a clean home, so I'm glad you have the right perspective!

Also- I just nominated you for the Stylish Blogger Award! Find out more about it here: http://posytheporcelainpig.blogspot.com/2011/02/stylish-blogger-award.html

Congrats! Love, Mikalah

Lisa said...

Oh, I can so relate. Ever thankful that our Lover can revive the most weary soul!

Rachel~Wildflower Photography and a little bit vintage said...

Lovely, lovely post. :) Glad you are back. ;)


Dani Joy said...

beautiful. It warmed my heart too! thank you for sharing. You are a Joy!

You are precious.

Dani Joy

Janette said...

Lovely post! Any post about Yeshua's love is the besterest for sure! I found your blog via A Brilliant Melody..and.....I like it.. I think I'm moving in...Hope you don't mind...


Shauna at The Reed Life said...

this describes so many of my days...but this expressed in such a sweet voice.
thank you for sharing yourself.

Leslie @ top of the page said...

joye, i'm loving being a newish follower of your blog. you're speakin' my language, pretty lady.

ricebabies said...

AWwww, how you make me feel happy. I have days where cleaning feels as if I am going in circles as well. I clean up , just for little hands to make another spill, but I adore them so. The kids, not the spills. ha ha

Mindy M. Harris said...

i really like the way you write! thanks for the reminder about lovin' on our Jesus.


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