8.26.2010

a first for everything


On Monday, my heart walked out my door in blue tennis shoes and a red backpack.  
And I'm still trying to learn how to cope without it.
I expected him to cry, but of course, I'm the one that can't seem to hold the tears back.
I now know what the Bible means when it says to pray constantly.  From the moment I leave his classroom in the morning until I return in the afternoon, I am praying.  

If I could have my way, I would homeschool my little boy.  But this year it is not an option for our family and I'm trying to be okay with that.  I'm really trying.  It helps that he has a wonderful teacher.  I am praising God for that answered prayer!

Now we're nearing the end of this week, with a surprisingly smooth transition.  Every morning, he has gone willingly.  And the few stories I can creatively extract from him are mostly positive.  I can tell it's been a huge adjustment, though, and I find myself lingering in his room after he is asleep, whispering prayers, and wiping warm tears from my eyes.

I'm taking lessons, too, in learning to trust my God.


20 comments:

Heather at Blessed Little Nest said...

oh joye, i know just what you mean. i prayed non stop, too!

PaisleyJade said...

Such a big step... for us! ((Hugs))

Erica said...

oh that is such a big deal! he is so cute! i'm glad he had a great first week of school (i'm guessing it'll get easier for you? i'm sure i'll be the blubbering mommy too!!)

{Amy} said...

oh, i can so relate to this as i just sent my little guy off to kindergarten, too. wow...much harder than i thought it would be...for me!

Kristin said...

Awwww.....he looks so cute! You are such a wonderful Mom, Joye, and seeing him go out into the world and be independent is just proof of the great job that you've done. I hope it gets easier for you!

Sugar Mama said...

My two boys are "the big kids" in their schools this year, being the oldest at each school; grades 6 and 8. I still cry when they go to school. And I JUST recently realized that I wasn't trusting God. I had to hand them over. I couldn't control their days... and I shouldn't try to.

(((( big hug ))))

carmen @ life blessons said...

Aw, what a sweet little post. He is so well-loved!

Lauren said...

awww - he looks so cute!! I;ll be praying for BOTH of you!

Missy said...

I know exactly how you feel. I am sending my son to 1st grade but it is the first time he will be going to public school.

Mich said...

He is too cute. Hang in there. The parenting doesn't get easier, but I think we as parents get stronger with every year.

Victoria said...

He is so stinking cute! Your little guy is so blessed to have a mommy that would keep him home if she could, but is obedient to God enough not to take it on knowing it isn't a fit for her family right now! Our Father is so pleased with you, Joye!

seawolfsurmises said...

you have such a cute little boy! i'm glad that school is going well for him - i hope and pray that y'all adjust to everything well!

a little bit vintage said...

Oh, how cute he looks! Letting go is a big step for us mamas...even when they aren't in school yet...like mine...LOL! :) I know that we eventually have to get to a place where we trust the God that gave them to us. He will take care of them...I'm obviously still working on this. :) Praying for you...and me...LOL! Happy weekend, friend!

Smiles,
Rachel

Linda said...

Those prayers from his momma are so important. Just trust God with his care...he will be fine.

He sure is a handsome little guy.

Hang in there momma! (:>)

Southern Gal said...

He can't be old enough for school!
Precious. I know it must be hard, Mom. It sounds like you're doing well. Praying for you right now.

Kate said...

He looks so tall!! I do not want to look forward to this day with my girls! I want them to stay babies! Great perspective on praying constantly!!

Theresa @ Heavenly Glimpses said...

I feel just what you are feeling. I send my boy to school tomorrow morning...the first of my four children. With a new baby and one going into kindergarten, I've had serious pangs and time of reflection, this past summer, over how much I want to cherish these little angels who are growing so quickly. I have to continuously give them over to God.

Darlene said...

What a big day and a big boy. Hoping you feel peace steadily!

Holly said...

I'm sure it's tough sending them off to school and them not being home all day with you.

Cherry Tree Lane said...

I am also learning to trust in the Lord.
It's so hard. So very difficult at times.
Continue telling the Lord the desires you have in your heart.
my love,
R

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