I love January. Really, I do. But New Year's Resolutions? We-ell....you know how those always turn out. Disappointing. And I don't think I can load anymore guilt on these mommy shoulders, you know? Yes, you do know. And that's just one of the things I love about you. You don't place anything too heavy or burdensome on me, that's just not your way. Your way is full of grace and I WANT THAT this year. I want your grace to mark my life. I want it to fill me, to MOTIVATE me, to strengthen me and make me into your vessel, a dwelling place for your Holy Spirit.
Sometimes the cares of this life overwhelm me and I feel so much guilt for neglecting my relationship with you. Sometimes it's not just the cares, it's how I cope with them, where I run to for my nourishment-- media, books, things... And I let them steal those moments when I could have sat with you and been filled by you. I really want that to change this year, Jesus. But I know me and you do too, and I'll need your GRACE to choose YOU.
This year, this month, this day, help me CHOOSE YOU. First. Before I reach for that old numbing comfort, which isn't really bad in itself, just time-stealing and so often leaves me empty when I could have been nourished by your words, your truth, your very self.
So, maybe I'll write resolutions, maybe I won't. Maybe I'll accomplish a few, maybe not. But one thing I will do. I will love you more than I ever have before.
Because I'll choose to.
"God’s readiness to give and forgive is now public. Salvation’s available for everyone! We’re being shown how to turn our backs on a godless, indulgent life, and how to take on a God-filled, God-honoring life. This new life is starting right now, and is whetting our appetites for the glorious day when our great God and Savior, Jesus Christ, appears. He offered himself as a sacrifice to free us from a dark, rebellious life into this good, pure life, making us a people he can be proud of, energetic in goodness." Titus 2: 11-14