6.06.2012

And it's a....


It's strange how you just "know" these things.  

Maybe I'm just an old pro by now, by I knew this pregnancy was different and that it had to be a girl.  I saved all of Astair's clothes several years ago because somehow I knew that one day we would have another little girl.

One day is right around the corner.
19 weeks already scratched off the calendar.
I can't wait to hold another precious girl baby in my arms.
And I'm finally starting to feel that second trimester well-being, the strength slowly returning to chase the woozies and the snoozies of early pregnancy.

I'm starting to feel a little bit like myself again.
And it feels good.

God and I had a long talk today and He was gentle as always, even though I was so frustrated with myself and my crazy mood swings and my lack of energy and my massive mommy failings.  I've been sick for a week with an upper respiratory infection that literally had me wiped out and stole my voice for days.  I was miserable.  And even though I was feeding my body tons of vitamin C, eating kiwi fruit by the pound, and forcing water down my throat, I was neglecting to feed my soul.  It's truly amazing how God shows us these things, how gentle the correction is, how life-giving his discipline.  

"For in him we live and move and have our being."  Acts 17:28

I'm not truly living unless I'm living in Him. Drawing my nourishment from His Words, His Spirit.  I need a steady diet of soul food.   This pregnancy has me relying on Jesus in a whole new way.  It's almost like I've reached the edge of what I can do on my own.  I really can't accomplish anything (much less get out of bed in the morning) without Him.  I prayed for strength today, to be the mother and wife and friend and daughter that He wills me to be.  I prayed through the Psalms and I didn't stop praying.  And I felt Him strengthening me.  I felt Jesus renewing me, lifting me, giving me grace.

I can't wait to seek Him again tomorrow.

19 comments:

Charissa Steyn said...

congrats on baby girl! and your words really hit home for me today too... :)

PaisleyJade said...

Beautiful news - congratulations!!!

Dee said...

Joye!
I have been thinking about you lately - wondering how you were doing with your pregnancy...
congrats on another little girl!! that's so precious.
x

Kelly said...

Congrats!! That is so exciting!!!

Mary said...

congratulations, joye and family! :)
i'm so glad that God is strengthening you.
and thank you so much for the words of encouragement.
xo

Maria Trochelman said...

Congratulations!!!

Stephanie said...

Oh, I know this exactly. Not only with this pregnancy (because it's been a struggle physically) but with other stresses in my life right now...God is using them to stretch me and I am learning more than ever how much I NEED Him. And I've been feeling such an intense desire to soak up His words like never before too. I was reminded of this verse the other day: "It is good for me that I was afflicted, that I might learn your statutes." (Psalm 119:71) As much as I'd much rather walk an easier road, I know that the road less traveled is the one more worthy, the one that will mold me and make me more into His image...and THAT is good. (That being said, I know how hard it is and I'm not perfect...that's where His grace comes in.)

carissa at lowercase letters said...

oh congratulations!!! another little joye. : ) SWOON!!

Rachel~Wildflower Photography Studio and a little bit vintage said...

oh congrats! now astair will have a little comrade in that house full of brothers. :)

Olivia Grace said...

A beautiful baby girl!!! What a blessing!!

Lisa said...

Yay! A Girl! I'm about 8 wks behind you and very anxious to find out what we're having. So far we have a boy and two girls, so another little man would be nice. Glad you are coming out of the 1st trimester funk!

nicole said...

blessings.

Emily Kate said...

What a beautiful lil family you have, congrats on the nina.:)

BARBIE said...

I am so thrilled for you!

Lissa @ The Looking Glass said...

woohooooooo congratulations!!! thank you for the amazing thoughts. :) found you via the weigands link up

Kelly @ Sufficient Grace Ministries said...

Well hi there, beautiful Joye, and congratulations on your latest sweet blessing. I love this post...and your honest, beautiful heart as you walk with our Lord. You bless me, girl.

Holly said...

congrats on the blessing of a little girl!!

Southern Gal said...

How did I miss this?! Congratulations! Astair will have an accomplice. ;)

Rebekah said...

Joye I just found an old email between us when you had just had legend. I've lost touch and just stopped by to see your wonderful news. Precious baby news! Story will indeed be a blessing from above! Much love. X

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